I have a weird relationship to food. I used to have eating disorders. I binged, purged, starved, over ate. I've tried nearly every diet. I've fasted. I've restricted.
Currently I'm loving who I am and learning to love the body I live in. I am appreciated by kind lovers who not only love my personality and mind but also my body.
The women in my family have hated their bodies, and felt guilt about what they consume their whole lives. Through thick and thin, and they have never found peace.I want peace.
I currently eat whatever I want. I give in to any craving I have. Yes I've gained a little extra weight (5lbs), but I was already overweight and it's the only thing I haven't tried.
Amazingly the food I've craved such as pizza and any combination of bread and cheese is actually becoming disgusting too me now.My cravings are starting to turn towards water, fruit, veggies, etc.
However, I have stomach problems. I've been to the doctor time and again, but they aren't sure what it is. Maybe it's stress, recently they said irritable bowel, but whatever it is I end up getting sick even when there is nothing to throw up.
Some times I simply CANNOT eat for days. This has presented a problem as not eating is really my only trigger--but it's a big one. After a week of getting sick for even touching water or saltines--It becomes harder and hard to want to eat...I don't like this.
So this blog is to keep me more aware of what I eat, document my food/body image struggles, a place to be whiny and crybaby like with out friends and family being forced to see it (like on facebook). Its also a place to reblog motivating images about body image, food, and exercise.Thought I am no longer ana, or mia, it is a safe space for other people with body image issues. No judgment--the ed community is probably the only place I've ever felt comfortable in discussing food issues, I hope to support others to be as healthy as possible while lost in their own ED's and support anyone who is trying to recover.
(no thinspo here)
I just don’t understand why Cas would rebel against heaven for Dean and risk everything for him and have everybody even acknowledge that and be aware of his feelings for Dean in canon, and then have him just……end up with Hannah.
Because different groups of people have been behind the various story archs. The first five years was well written and well thought out, and the rest have just been stories put together because the ratings are up. Also I think Jensen Ackles is slightly homophobic and has pretty much helped *rewrite* any scene in which he and misha say or do anything overt that makes Dean’s sexuality more ambigous then it already. To the untrained eye, he is straight, and I think that’s the way Jensen would like to keep it.
The writers are just writing for the network which is in love the ratings, not the storyline. We keep watching cause we are Supernatural addicts and don’t care that its taken a turn because we absolutely have to watch and see if our ship becomes canon and me personally because i am addicted to Dean Winchester.
God i’ve gotten way to cynical about a television show.